Lucero Speaks

The Need For Recognition

// Author: Annetta Lucero // 4 Comments

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As an artist I often struggle with the need for recognition.
The times when I don’t feel the urge to spray my scent all over a shared project and claim glory come and go.  It is my current belief that many people who are living as full time artists are those who have experienced great suffering in their lives.  I have, at times, hidden my feelings of shame like little piles of dirt brushed aside in a dim room; easily revealed with a simple flick of the lights.
Art is often an expression of the path to healing, or of one’s continued pain.  Much of my personal pain stemmed from childhood feelings of inadequacy, abusive punishments for not being “good enough”, abandonment, etc.
The effects of this kind of pain have been a challenge when mixed with presenting ideas, concepts and works of art both visual and physical.  The simple desire to be recognized for my contributions and my interpretation of being overlooked can often cause me discomfort and even grief.

Recently, I have been examining this quality in myself in an effort to continue making each moment I am present in this world more peaceful; for myself and for those who interact with me within the context of creative projects and every day life.

Just admitting that these feelings sometimes flood my existence has already enabled me to be more receptive and open to finding solutions.  Brushing tinges of resentment into shallow corners of my mind is no longer an option, and I am already relieved.  Those little piles of dust and lint mixed with the occasional stray pin can’t jab a sneaky hole in my psyche as often if they are out in the open where I can see them.

 

 

4 comments

  1. Valdeane Odachi - January 13, 2014 6:26 am

    Aughhhh!!! Stop reading my soul!!! This pops up JUST as Iʻm cramming to add more classes onto my school schedule even though I vowed to give myself more time… Of course Iʻll still overachieve and add more classes but your post was a wonderful reminder that degrees, status, recognition, etc… do not define the self. Iʻll try to find balance… Maybe less classes and I should get a part time job! Something fun!

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  2. Leo Adonis - January 13, 2014 9:04 pm

    I see and recognize you in all your fabulousness, Annetta. Thank you for sharing. I saw a documentary once about one of my life long heroes, Herbert von Karajan, who was one of the most famous orchestra conductors of the 20th century. An interviewee said something to the effect of “an artist must gain recognition for his efforts or he becomes despondent and even suicidal.” That’s a bit extreme, perhaps, but I think there is some truth in that. Those who are called to creative/artistic expression and performance are sharing and bearing their souls and making themselves nakedly available to the world in a very brave manner. To be recognized is to have one’s value and worth reflected back to them. It is the world’s way of saying, “We see you. We love you. Thank you for sharing.” Thank God for the artists and performers of the world.

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  3. David McBride - January 13, 2014 9:32 pm

    I recognize your greatness and understand your plight. With my photography I get frustrated that so few people “like” my work, but it always brings joy to my heart knowing that you, a greater artist than I, appreciate my work.

    Everyday I keep going and strive to better than I was the day before. I’ve come a long way and have still a long way to go!

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  4. Guido van Gent - February 5, 2014 7:58 am

    Great story and great advice!
    Self-reflection is the key to continue to improve yourself. Thank you!

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